Tuesday is a good day....

I am feeling really good.  I still feel that I need a snack at 10 in the morning but I eat breakfast at like 7 and 5 hours is just too long for me to not eat.  I have been saving my IP food snack for the afternoon so I have had to be creative to come up with snacks for the morning.  I rediscovered things like pickled asparagus and roasted broccoli. Deb is a great source of ideas for things to eat.  She suggested such things like tuna salad on cucumber rounds and turkey bites.  I am also finding that I am not craving sugar anymore.  I miss it at times when someone brings out left over chocolate Easter eggs but I can easily say its not on my plan so I am not going to eat it.  The overwhelming I must have it is gone.  I am actually getting all the way hungry before I need to eat.  I mean my tummy is growling.  I also am not getting owly when I am hungry anymore.  Such a change in five days.  I can't wait to meet with Deb and get weighed in on her scale.  I can tell that my pants are already getting more comfortable.  Its a joy to know that such little effort on my part is reaping such great rewards.  Next on the menu plan is ground turkey wrapped in butter lettuce leaves.  I checked the epicure Taco seasoning and I think I will be able to use that on my turkey.  I am really hoping that my energy levels come up a smidge more.  I went for what I would consider an easy walk and was pretty tired by the time I got back to the house.   My hope is to be able to get back to regular gym activity soon.  I don't expect to be able to go to spin class any time soon but some yoga and weightlifting would be good.  More muscle means more calories burnt at rest.  Ta Ta for now.....

Feeling more normal...ish

Okay people....here is where the rubber meets the road.  The poor me cravings have started.   I thought I would have a smidgen more of a honeymoon period but no such luck.  I watched my daughter enviously as she slurped back a jumbo mr freezie.  I watched everyone eat a Oreo sandwich.  I did treat myself to a Crystal light while everyone ate their dessert.  I checked myself on my scale which isn't as good as having my self weighed on the same scale I started on but I was curious.  After three days my scale says four pounds gone.  I know this is just water weight but it was four pounds in three days.  And this is how I am consoling myself. I tell myself being happy in not worth a freezie.  It isn't worth an Oreo ice cream sandwich.  They taste good in the moment but I feel sad and I beat myself up immediately after I eat it.  I know they aren't a good choice for a sugar addict like myself because I can't eat just one.  I'll have one and then I'll eat a piece of cheese and then a piece of sandwich meat and then a bowl of cereal and then I'll feel bad so I'll eat chocolate.  It's insane.  So I have just decided to stop that behaviour.  If it doesn't make me happy, I'm not eating it.  Eating what's on plan is following my goal and therefore makes me happy so protein it is.  Beside what other diet can you have chocolate pudding for breakfast?!? So carry on, carry on.......

One day down......

I am so tired but not tired.  It is a strange thing to be full but still have your body wanting you to eat.  I have tried several foods.  My two favourites are the wild berry yogurt and the dark chocolate pudding.  They were yummmmmmy.  The cappuccino is good and the soup tasted like tomato and basil soup although the texture is not what you would expect.  It wasn't unpleasant...just different.  I have alternated between cranky and super cheerful.  I feel kinda sorry for my family.  I am doing my best to not be cranky with them because I know it is just me reacting to my blood sugar or lack thereof.  Not anything they are actually doing.  I'll admit that I don't feel as bad as I thought I would.  I have had a light headache since yesterday noon but nothing too terrible.  I have been doing this for a whole 24 hours and I am still feeling positive despite the small discomfort.  I am told this will last three days at least but not more than a week.  I went to bed early just to avoid everything.  I am feeling out of sorts still today but I was told that day 2 would be the worst day.  My body is screaming for food even though I know I just ate.  I called Deb cause she said call her with any questions and she told me that as long as I don't have anything with fat with the carbs from the IP food, I can have a snack to get me through.  Tuna with pickles and raw onion or some low fat sandwich meat (check the package to make sure there is no sugar people) or some veggies with one of the Walden farms dips.  Turkey bites are a great snack too but you can't have them too close to the IP meals cause they have fat.  I think I am learning.....but it is a steep curve and Deb has been great with letting me text and BBM her with my questions throughout the day.   No fat with carbs seems to be the main lesson for today.  Fat with protein not with carbs.  I am going to get a cookbook from Deb this next week.  There are three to look at and you don't have to buy them.  Deb will let me borrow them.  I still haven't come up with a good reward for myself yet.  I am going to Vegas in February to be with my friend who is getting married and that gives me all sorts of reward opportunities doesn't it.  I am trying to move past the food rewards of the past.  A dinner out for a job well done is the past.  Not only will it help me save money, but it will help me keep this weight off in the long run to get rid of that habit.  My husband is so helpful with this program too.  Last night he grilled chicken with the Walden Farms BBQ sauce for me.  He keeps telling me to do what makes me happy.  He loves me as I am but he doesn't want me to not love myself.  I am looking forward to being energetic and happy.  i want to be able to run around the block following my daughter riding her bike.  There is no way I could do that right now.  Lucky for me she hasn't quite figured out the pedalling thing and often brakes instead of pedaling forward.  Anyways, I have to get some stuff done before I go to work for the afternoon.  I have vacation time coming soon and I need to clear off my desk!!  Talk to you tomorrow!!

Tomorrow is the "day"

So I officially start tomorrow.  I am looking forward to it...sort of.  I am hopeful but I am trying hard to keep my expectations reasonable.  I am concerned that if i hope for too much it won't happen.  At the same time I really want to hope for my dreams to come true.  I just want to shop in a regular store.  Sometime it seems like it is too much to ask for but i want to be able to wear things that are in style.  I want to be able to choose a style instead of wearing whatever fits me from the "big girl" store.  It seems like such a tremendous thing to ask for.  I am scared that I am going to fail.  Again.  I know that because of the support that I can get from the staff at Complete Health that I should succeed.  I also know that it is up to me.  Making decisions day to day moment to moment to not eat off program.  That is how I will do this.  That and bribery.....that always helps.  I need some ideas...what should i reward myself with??  Any ideas? 

Ready to go!!

So I start my Ideal Protein plan on Friday.  I am naturally a little nervous to start another diet.  I have tried quite a few of them.  Weight Watchers, U Weightloss, Atkins always with limited success.  No guidance with the Atkins made it hard to stay on track.  To much guidance with U-Weightloss made it boring after a year.  Weight Watchers was just to open to cheating ...save up points all day and eat whatever for supper as long as the points were right, you were following plan right?  So when Deb started this clinic I watched her and my mom and her mom drop weight so quickly without the planning and groceries and cooking that was required for all the other things I had tried.  I spent so much time in the kitchen cooking and chopping and preparing and after a year it was just too much.  I work full-time, I have a three year old and I go to school part time. I finally decided that enough was enough and I told Deb I was ready for her to help me.  My goal is to be 175 - 185 pounds by February.  I am starting out at a hearty 244lbs.   Wish me luck!!