Holy Smoke!! Where did the time go!!

So life happens right?  I had my mom's sister pass away from cancer and I had my dad's brother pass away also from cancer within a month.  I decided that I can't cope with another death so I claimed Jack Layton's passing as my third death.  I hope I was right.  I have fallen off the wagon and I feel guilty and I have a tremendous case of the should's as Deb would say.  I should have planned better. I should have said no.  I should have stuck to the plan like glue even though I had to travel to Kyle and I had to travel to Lethbridge and I had to travel to Bruno plus I start school right away on top of my job and a half.  Life has officially gotten in the way of any sort of plan I may have had.  I found out that I can't go to Puerto Vallarta after christmas like we planned and things are just sort of falling apart.  I have to reset and restart.  One doesn't plan for these things.  They just kind of happen.  I am still going to Vegas in February.  That plan has not altered.....therefore I need to get myself back on plan and keep going.  I want to get to my goal. Deb has been great through all this.  Honestly I have only lost two weeks but it feels like it has been a long time. This isn't easy mentally.  Physically and planning wise this is the easiest program I have ever tried but mentally it is as hard as any other weight loss program.  The food is easy because the rules are simple. But cheating is still so tempting and it is three steps forward two steps back.  Every cheat means a loss of three days.  As I have told other people, this is going to worth it in the end.  I want it for me and me alone so it is that much harder because I feel selfish doing it.  But sometimes one needs to be selfish.