All alone....

My husband and daughter went to the lake for the weekend.  I have work to do and I need to get a massage for a headache that I have had for weeks.  It is harder to stay on track while all alone though.  I am not really sure why.  Maybe I am feeling a smidge lonely....that might be it.  I was hoping to really enjoy this time alone but all I do is sit here and think about food.  It is actually rather tiresome.  I want to eat to live not live to eat but it really seems to be a very ingrained habit.  I want to break this habit.  I want to be healthy.  I want to win this one.  I am stuck again at 230.  It is really aggravating and I will push through it.  Deb won't let me give up.  She promised to help me break through this.  I just wish it was instant...  : )